Sunday, January 18, 2009

Finding the smallest reasons to be cheerful... with everything ticking

My first blog and its a strange thing...Today there is a wall of white when I look out of every window and so all is visually clean and pure in Akureyri.. not a dirty footstep in the snow to contaminate it as yet and how I often wish it would stay that way.
I'm so sure the earth would be a truly, magnificent place... a real jewel in space without the dirty specs on its surface of man's often parasitic presence....we are as a race in our human presence mostly Insane and inherently ungrateful.. but when in touch with ourselves at a soul level, were capable of the greatest acts, beautiful expressions and love.... we are so divided by greed and control that mostly we do not know what we truly have or understand or what we want anymore...Its a paradox to have a collective consciousness yet be so divided, unconnected, oblivious and individual....

But there is room for hope at a soul level to go back to basics and make changes..It has to be extreme changes though with some serious "housework" done ... No one likes cleaning the toilet....So It gets worse before it gets better...

Earth is a wonderful place to the many who appreciate it. Its an ultimate gift but as a majority what do we do with the gift? ...Imagine your parents handed you a beautiful gift at Christmas, they put every thought into it to make sure its just perfect for you and then as your all gathered around the Christmas tree ( Forgive me portraying the Hollywood vision of Christmas perfection) you open the gift...Wow...Its so perfect, everything you could ever want and hope for..all your needs are met and your parents take a deep breath and pause.... they watch you and look to see what you do.. how you react......But then in gratitude you pull down your pants and shit all over it. Oops!!!. Thank you!!

My late father always taught me to never shit on your own doorstep....

OK anyway we have much to be cheerful in life about still and there is always hope.. where there is breath...while there is air to breath..

This week I resolved to find reasons to be cheerful in the face of personal circumstances,local challenges and changes on a ever alarming global scale...

I have been a struggling with alot consciously and unconsciously, ill health, exhaustion and being very often depressed Artist, Writer, (a bit of nature of the beast in some respects...Im "in love" always to the point of my own destruction) But still a Light worker, intuitive and healer/therapist for others.
Ive been in this perpetual state of highs and lows for months, years and all my life. The last 5 years have been some of the darkest years of my life with Birthdays, Christmas's, New Years spent mostly in tears and with sleeping tablets and in truth I know how it feels to feel as insignificant as humanely possible.

But recently something inside me changed, my reality got a shock to life and Life is known for turning upside down and why should I as anyone be immune to life and now when the shit seems to be hitting the fan for me personally and with events on the planet escalating, I am finding myself strangely "happy, peaceful, calm, not depressed... still "in love", but loving in a better way because I'm going back to my internal natural basics.. Loving myself knowing somehow for sure that this is it...here and now is all we have.. and Love is the most precious thing.We have the smallest and the biggest gifts in our lives and often were blind to them.
Truly we do not know for certain what tomorrow brings even with the gift of foresight I have my blind spots... so my message is live fully for today....
Even though I am aware that we are not our bodies and there is more to our earthly existence...life is an experience, It can be beautiful it can be harsh.. dark and light moments as day and night, a lesson, just a moment in our perspective of linear time but still to live in this moment fully is important.

So with this and why i started this Blog my Hot news for me this week is I'm turning off my Mobile phone as my new start... for many reasons as of this week...I'm thinking of starting a group called Mobiles Anonymous.. he he (for those of us who need support) Its said socially its likened to suicide giving up your phone and disconnecting to the networks we build in our lives!.. Truly how insane is that????..I want more peace in my life and not be invaded and also not to invade...I don't want to cook my head with radiation.. I cannot afford to..

I want the Honey/Bumble bees and insects to stay on the planet and have there rightful place and not disappear like they are at alarming rate.. Einstein said that if the bee disappears then mankind only had 4 years... HUGE WAKE UP CALL!!!!!!... Im assured enough and research shows that mobiles and radiation from them are big contributing factor.... It's one serious thing to think about.. along with the global warming etc, I cant change the face of all this alone yet its the first few small steps that start the climb up any mountain...

From other personal perspectives, no longer do I want to throw away my earned money when I am always moaning I don't have enough. No more throwing away resources that can be used better. Its all wasted on credit and buying airtime, top ups, texting being instantly contactable and my time, privacy, energy consumed yet its a fraction of this way of living that is destroying the very basics and essential core of life and why do that?... When I can use the money to help feed people or educate children and families and make a bigger difference somewhere to someone else in the world or to even my next door neighbor. Im sure for me its the right thing to do...People are definatly suffering in the world and we are all responsible.. on many levels and our planet that sustains us is at breaking point...We're living on a ticking Bomb of our own making...WAKE UP!!!!

"Be the change you want to see" Ghandi..

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