Being in Control when "under Control"

We are all controlled... we want to control and live in its realms. We do not as a race show much self control, Its a fact and one that I decided today to blog about as on a personal level Im exercising a little more "self control" in light of my health and how life has been these years...quite miserable and now how I want life to be and know it can be but thinking about it there is so much more....
At my basics Im controlling blood pressure, my weight that had always fluctuated all my life, my thoughts, stress and how I live. Im focusing on finding reasons to be cheerful...

But one must be honest and rewind the tape a little first and step a foot outside of my own little world and point out again how we have bigger controls at play and we are not alone.." big brother" is watching you... I think its more likely "Big Brothers" in various disguises and most of us are content in the net of control and we dare not to think about it. Its not just the Governments alone because there are many unseen forces who want control for there own agenda and if the majority of us actually dared to look and see the truth..well I would not be writing about it.

From our earliest steps in life we are controlled by our parents, our carers, the society we live in, the country and programmed "to be" and "to do" and "do not". Our earliest neural programming can be varied depending on which program is run its a lottery if your parents, ancestors are balanced or not!

Though Im feeling peaceful now writing this its because I feel Im closer to the truth than ever. Its the freedom of mind, choices and expression that is the root of my happiness and I wish that for everyone...
We can all be more in control of ourselves and make bigger differences than we want yet we are more comforted and safe being Controlled in "this system" of things with the illusions and false sense of security.
How can that be when you look at what is happening now with financial global collapse, Israel stamping its ugly feet over everything and the ever bigger threats of wars elsewhere..and still we continue as we always did.. Most of man does nothing.. we dont want to make changes and then are angry being let down by the Big Boys in control when the false veil of security has been dropped..

To make some sense of it in my mind I say I know we are created somehow and we can create equally. The whole universe is created and ignorantly some of you live on this blue green globe and think that the stars and universe is just for our entertainment and decoration!!!..We are not alone. Our human design far to complex and amazing to be coincidence and the physics of the planet, the universal laws so perfected that its not possible in any logic to think an explosion caused its order... Did all the bits just fell into place exactly where needed and then the cycles of nature that work in harmony with each other all become coincidence?...I am talking of an intelligence at work, a master of physics, chemistry, biology, psychology and more but I have a BIG problem with Religion, with the God/Gods of religions as its proved a wolf in sheep's clothing.Its fearful, destructive in nature and has proved no reason for mankind to have hope given the acts taken from the name of God and Religion. Its not our hope and salvation because the lies and control continue and we are as a race are equally destructive, insecure and in fearful.

I actually never for a long time gave a slight thought that the omniscient, omnipotent creator could possibly be an advanced version of a nerd who spends most of the time building model railroads or overseeing video-game worlds but then we had "The Matrix"..Fantastic yet chilling film and concept but Its to unsettling to think of the world being run by a computer geek or a controlling alien race but we just do not know...although if that were the case then we might at last dispose of that classic theological question... How could God allow so much evil in the world? For the same reason there are plagues and earthquakes and battles in games like World of Warcraft. Peace is boring, man!!..
From my point, Peace is anything but boring but as a collective whole we struggle and just dont know how to be that way.. its unnatural to our programming...or is it?...Though I think its truly the hardest thing to find peace within yourself and re-programm the controls that make us who we are. To find acceptance, tolerance, forgiveness and love but things are changing and fast on the planet that silently screams and there are new vibrations on earth and still more disturbing events happening.. but there has been an awakening in some of Mankind..There is some hope...many of us who are looking around and questioning, changing... but Im not talking about the ones who want another war to settle the question... There has been a huge surge in The New Age and alternatives in life.. more peaceful alternatives that appear weak to the Programming we've functioned on for centuries... but as yet we the "changing ones" do not fit into the Controlled Society but I know its those of us.. the healers, the Light Workers, the seers, the creatives, the spiritual minded who wish for peace and love that are going back to the basics and undoing the programming of control and accepting this is now how is it or has to be..We are discovering, opening within ourselves another, more complex program that has been dormant or hidden for longer than man dares to look at... Its all within us the answers and we are more powerful inside than you can imagine..
Yet lets be realistic and add a little paranoia here when we should ask the question who hid that programming within us? Was it Big Brothers of long ago, was it other ancient civilizations, alien races or the nerdy Computer programmer controlling us?... One thing for sure is we have it within us to find the answers that are simple... We are creators of our reality, all have free will and can make better choices but we dont like to use that program or freedom.. yet still complain and scream and riot when everything is falling down around us....

Finding the smallest reasons to be cheerful... with everything ticking

My first blog and its a strange thing...Today there is a wall of white when I look out of every window and so all is visually clean and pure in Akureyri.. not a dirty footstep in the snow to contaminate it as yet and how I often wish it would stay that way.
I'm so sure the earth would be a truly, magnificent place... a real jewel in space without the dirty specs on its surface of man's often parasitic presence....we are as a race in our human presence mostly Insane and inherently ungrateful.. but when in touch with ourselves at a soul level, were capable of the greatest acts, beautiful expressions and love.... we are so divided by greed and control that mostly we do not know what we truly have or understand or what we want anymore...Its a paradox to have a collective consciousness yet be so divided, unconnected, oblivious and individual....

But there is room for hope at a soul level to go back to basics and make changes..It has to be extreme changes though with some serious "housework" done ... No one likes cleaning the toilet....So It gets worse before it gets better...

Earth is a wonderful place to the many who appreciate it. Its an ultimate gift but as a majority what do we do with the gift? ...Imagine your parents handed you a beautiful gift at Christmas, they put every thought into it to make sure its just perfect for you and then as your all gathered around the Christmas tree ( Forgive me portraying the Hollywood vision of Christmas perfection) you open the gift...Wow...Its so perfect, everything you could ever want and hope for..all your needs are met and your parents take a deep breath and pause.... they watch you and look to see what you do.. how you react......But then in gratitude you pull down your pants and shit all over it. Oops!!!. Thank you!!

My late father always taught me to never shit on your own doorstep....

OK anyway we have much to be cheerful in life about still and there is always hope.. where there is breath...while there is air to breath..

This week I resolved to find reasons to be cheerful in the face of personal circumstances,local challenges and changes on a ever alarming global scale...

I have been a struggling with alot consciously and unconsciously, ill health, exhaustion and being very often depressed Artist, Writer, (a bit of nature of the beast in some respects...Im "in love" always to the point of my own destruction) But still a Light worker, intuitive and healer/therapist for others.
Ive been in this perpetual state of highs and lows for months, years and all my life. The last 5 years have been some of the darkest years of my life with Birthdays, Christmas's, New Years spent mostly in tears and with sleeping tablets and in truth I know how it feels to feel as insignificant as humanely possible.

But recently something inside me changed, my reality got a shock to life and Life is known for turning upside down and why should I as anyone be immune to life and now when the shit seems to be hitting the fan for me personally and with events on the planet escalating, I am finding myself strangely "happy, peaceful, calm, not depressed... still "in love", but loving in a better way because I'm going back to my internal natural basics.. Loving myself knowing somehow for sure that this is it...here and now is all we have.. and Love is the most precious thing.We have the smallest and the biggest gifts in our lives and often were blind to them.
Truly we do not know for certain what tomorrow brings even with the gift of foresight I have my blind spots... so my message is live fully for today....
Even though I am aware that we are not our bodies and there is more to our earthly existence...life is an experience, It can be beautiful it can be harsh.. dark and light moments as day and night, a lesson, just a moment in our perspective of linear time but still to live in this moment fully is important.

So with this and why i started this Blog my Hot news for me this week is I'm turning off my Mobile phone as my new start... for many reasons as of this week...I'm thinking of starting a group called Mobiles Anonymous.. he he (for those of us who need support) Its said socially its likened to suicide giving up your phone and disconnecting to the networks we build in our lives!.. Truly how insane is that????..I want more peace in my life and not be invaded and also not to invade...I don't want to cook my head with radiation.. I cannot afford to..

I want the Honey/Bumble bees and insects to stay on the planet and have there rightful place and not disappear like they are at alarming rate.. Einstein said that if the bee disappears then mankind only had 4 years... HUGE WAKE UP CALL!!!!!!... Im assured enough and research shows that mobiles and radiation from them are big contributing factor.... It's one serious thing to think about.. along with the global warming etc, I cant change the face of all this alone yet its the first few small steps that start the climb up any mountain...

From other personal perspectives, no longer do I want to throw away my earned money when I am always moaning I don't have enough. No more throwing away resources that can be used better. Its all wasted on credit and buying airtime, top ups, texting being instantly contactable and my time, privacy, energy consumed yet its a fraction of this way of living that is destroying the very basics and essential core of life and why do that?... When I can use the money to help feed people or educate children and families and make a bigger difference somewhere to someone else in the world or to even my next door neighbor. Im sure for me its the right thing to do...People are definatly suffering in the world and we are all responsible.. on many levels and our planet that sustains us is at breaking point...We're living on a ticking Bomb of our own making...WAKE UP!!!!

"Be the change you want to see" Ghandi..